The Barren Woman...Really???

I feel like a lot has happened in the last couple of weeks that have caused me to think, "I should blog that..." but, of course, now that I sit here at the keyboard, I can remember very few of those things.

Let's start with, I broke up with Eric last week. And, I must question the validity of that statement...which leads to two questions:
1. Can one question the validity of one's own statement? And,
2. Do you really break up with someone who isn't your boyfriend?
Ok, three questions:
3. What is the correct terminology for when you tell someone you don't want to date them anymore? (I mean, I guess that is the correct terminology...I'd just like for it to be less wordy.)

Anyway, Eric and I are no longer dating.

I am so, so excited about where I am right now. A couple days after it all went down (really, telling the person who introduced us was way worse than actually doing the deed) a friend from church stopped in the store and here, pretty much, is the run-down of the conversation we had:
Lisa: I was reading Scripture yesterday and I read something that made me think of you.
Me: Really? [See, at this point, I was excited...I love when God does stuff like that.]
Lisa: Yeah...I can't remember the passage...but, you know...it was about the barren woman...
Me: Uhhh...thank you?

I mean, really...what do you say when someone tells you the barren woman reminds her of you??? Unless you actually are barren and need encouragement in that area, what is the appropriate response???

What she said after that, though, had me thinking for a couple of days. She said that even if I never marry and never have physical children, the Lord will give me spiritual children through discipleship and ministry and Ecuador and that there is blessing in being single at my age because I am so free to chase the Lord and to follow without having to consider anyone else. So, I thought about that for a couple of days. And, although the initial conversation was awkward, I am so grateful
for it. Here's where I am now:

I am so, so excited about being single right now. I am so, so excited about where my walk with the Lord is right now. This is the first time, ever, that I my walk isn't in crisis mode...that I don't feel like the tail end of a marathon, just trying to keep up the crowd. My walk right now is a casual stroll in the park...it's the casual get-to-know-each-other dating. I have time right now to do nothing other than get to know Jesus...I'm not pleading for rescue right now. And, I'm excited about being single because it affords me the time and opportunity to do just that...to chase Jesus to find Him, and know Him, and just chill with Jesus.

A couple months ago the thought crossed my mind and a feeling sort of settled that maybe the Lord really doesn't have someone for me. It just sort of settled...like, this is how its going to be. It didn't really upset me...no singleness related depression...just acceptance. Now, though, I'm very ok with that thought...maybe even excited. I don't know. If that's the case, I'm so excited about the time I'll have to
know Jesus better and love people more.

I wish I could remember the other things I was going to write about.

Hmmmm...

K-E-R-R-Y

Ok...Lisa tagged me, so here goes...

An adjective for each letter of my name...

K - Known. "O LORD, You have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; You understand my thought from afar." I've always hated this game as an ice-breaker because the only "K" I could come up with was kind...but for some reason, this time I thought of this...I like it.

E - Encouraged. The Lord has put some really amazing people in my life for just this time to encourage me and love me...it's working! :)

R - Redeemed. 'Nuff said.

R - Redeemed. I figure that one is worth mentioning twice. If you find that lame (deep down, I do too), how about Real. It's an important word to me...being involved in Young Life teaches you to be real with kids and not hide the hard stuff.

Y - Yearning. For Ecuador, for Heaven, for the world the way the Lord wants it.

Now, four people...I think only four people read this and two of them have already been tagged so I'll go with Stephanie and Morgan...you're it! (Oh! Steph and Morgan, you're husbands can do it, too...that makes four!) :)