Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Red and Yellow, Black and White

"Since you are precious in My sight,
Since you are honored and I love you,
I will give other men in your place and other peoples in exchange for your life."
Isaiah 43:4

This is how I know God loves us:






Color.

I was struck by this once in Peru about five years ago...and it changed the way I viewed a lot of things. God could have created this world in one color. Everything could be just blah. It could all be beige. Or olive green. Olive green was always the least used color in my Crayola box. I always hated olive green.

He could have.

But He didn’t.

Instead He gave us color. Stunning, breathtaking, awe-inspiring color. As I write this, i am sitting outside, looking over the Caribbean Ocean. It is a blue words couldn’t even begin to describe and the sun reflects off it’s surface in a million sparkles. The sky is currently several ridiculous shades of blue and white. Off to my left is the southern end of the island painted in limitless shades of green from the jungly mountaintops to the grassy rolling hills. Just beyond the end of this island is the mass of rock that is Nevis, the next island. Usually, it’s hidden under cloud cover and you can’t see much from here...but today is clear. The part of Nevis visible from here is a large mountain covered in a beautiful deep emerald green...much prettier than olive green.

Yesterday we spent hours out on the boat, out in a cove. I think I love that cove because of the range of creation you can see there. Sit on the boat and look out toward the horizon and see forever blue ocean. There aren’t many waves here...it’s smooth as far as you can see. Turn around and look toward land and see, down where the water meets the land, huge rocks and a high, rocky cliff. Even the rocks here are pretty...so many variations of grays and whites and silvers...and the shapes on the cliff. They look like God, Himself, stretched out His hand and carved them with His own finger. Look up higher on the cliff, though, and the vegetation begins and you find a whole new world of greens.

But, then, my favorite part...put on your mask and snorkle and look down. If you just kind of float on the top and breath...don’t splash too much...it’s like they forget you’re there and they all come out. The fish. They are unbelievable. Too many colors and variations on colors to even begin to describe.

This underwater world isn’t a world we were meant to live in...and yet He put those colors there for us to find. Just to say, ‘Hey, I put this here just for you to enjoy. Look at these and know how much I love you.’

Everything could be tan and khaki and blah...but it isn’t. Color is a gift from God above to remind us how very much He loves us. He doesn’t need these things to be so many incredible colors. They aren’t necessary for Him to accomplish His tasks. They are there because He loves us, because we are precious in His sight.

I think the people in our lives are colors, too.

The people who bring joy and laughter to our lives...they are our pinks and reds and bright blues. They are the Caribbean Oceans in our daily lives.

And your earth tones: solid, deep oranges and greens...like the top of Nevis right now. They are the relationships of stability and longevity. The ones who never move, who are always right where you need them to be.

Life without the silvers and grays of the cliff would be so difficult. They are the relationships that bring highlights to the dark, sorrowful moments of our lives.

Yellows, like the sun that beats on me right now, the treasured ones who bring a reminder that tomorrow is a new day. That the sun will rise and you can begin again.

A few relationships have been such key factors in the way God has chosen to reveal Himself and His love for me. Without even thinking, I can list people who are each of these colors to me...without them, my life would be painted in plain tans and khakis.

I am so thankful for the Lord’s love and the so very many ways He reveals that to us!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Can anyone else not wrap their brain around this:

But now, thus says the LORD, your Creator, O Jacob,
And He who formed you, O Israel,
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name; you are Mine!
"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they will not overflow you
When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched,
Nor will the flame burn you.
"For I am the LORD your God,
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I have given Egypt as your ransom,
Cush and Seba in your place.
"Since you are precious in My sight,
Since you are honored and I love you,
I will give other men in your place and other peoples in exchange for your life.
"Do not fear, for I am with you"

Isaiah 43.1-5

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Not Me! Monday

So, over on the right side of my blog is a button about praying for sweet baby Stellan that also serves as a link to MckMama's blog. Stellan's story is beyond amazing and his life outside MckMama's belly hasn't even begun yet! Seriously...it's worth reading. I warn you, though, once you start you won't be able to stop.

So, about Not Me! Monday...go here to see what it's all about and then do one yourself!



I have not, not at all, pulled up MckMama's blog just to look at her new header with a for real live picture of Stellan instead of the sonogram...that would be stalkerish.

I did not attempt to read MckMama's post about Stellan's birth at work one day...only to give up because I was crying and didn't want to have to explain to my co-workers that I was crying over a blog. And then I didn't try to read it again later that afternoon and cry like a baby all over again. Over a blog. A blog belonging to someone I've never met in for real life. Does that make me an official stalker???

I did not just see my first Christmas commercial...seriously, folks? It's barely November! At least there's no more political commercials!!! :)

I did not have to try FIVE different registers at Target before they could find one where both the computer and the debit card machine would work. And if I had, I certainly wouldn't have left my wallet sitting at one of those registers.

I did not miss a day and a half of work last week because of migraine issues.

I did not attempt to get out of a flu shot at church yesterday by saying that I'm afraid of needles...if I had it surely would have worked because all of those ladies didn't surely see my brand spanking new tattoo just a couple weeks ago. I also didn't run out of excuses and go ahead and get the shot. And I won't be super mad if I get the flu this year.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Sometimes God just blows my mind...

Read this:

STELLAN Update!

Happy Birthday, Sweet Stellan!!!

We're so excited to "meet" you!

I just checked my past posts and I can't believe I haven't posted about this sweet boy before! I mean, I kinda' have with my Not Me! Monday posts...but not just about he and his family.

Back in July when his sweet mama (affectionately known around the world as MckMama) was 24 weeks pregnant (some of my details may not be entirely correct...I am not medical), Stellan's heart went crazy...he had severe heart blockage and some pretty crazy tachycardia. MckMama was told that Stellan's only chance of surviving outside of the womb would be feasible if he made it to 31 weeks...but with the state of his heart, he wouldn't survive another 24 hours even in the womb.

And thus began the prayer vigil...and the phenomena known as Stellan-mania.

Actually, I just made that up...but it's pretty ridiculous how many people, literally, around the world "know" MckMama, Stellan and the rest of her brood and are praying for her faithfully.

All of that to say, in about 35 minutes-ish, MckMama is headed in to the OR for a c-section to deliver sweet Stellan at 39 weeks (I think). He has been doing SO well! They even took her off the medication she was taking for his heart.

Three months ago, Stellan had irreversible heart blockage.

Now there is no evidence of it.

Three months ago, Stellan's doctors said he wouldn't live another 24 hours.

Three freaking months ago.

And he'll be here among us in a little more than half an hour.

And there is a good chance he won't need medical intervention.

Un-freaking believeable. That's how stinking cool our God is.

So, pray for Stellan and MckMama.

(Oh, and for all the accurate details, read MckMama's blog: My Charming Kids. You will be blessed, encouraged and entertained.)

Monday, October 27, 2008

Not Me! Monday

So, over on the right side of my blog is a button about praying for sweet baby Stellan that also serves as a link to MckMama's blog. Stellan's story is beyond amazing and his life outside MckMama's belly hasn't even begun yet! Seriously...it's worth reading. I warn you, though, once you start you won't be able to stop.

So, about Not Me! Monday...go here to see what it's all about and then do one yourself!



I was not so busy/frustrated/sick last week that I skipped Not Me! Monday entirely.

This is most certainly not me...



And I am most certainly not doing this...



But...purely for the sake of hypothesizing...if I did do such a thing, it would look like this...



While working on the production team at church, I did not slip up behind the guy I was training during the service, grab his arm and try to pull him to follow me...I did not then realize it was not the right guy, but a teenager. Eeee...awkward.

I did not really appreciate the accounting (payroll) lady fix all my mistakes on my time card so my boss wouldn't fuss at me.

I did not get asked three times yesterday who my husband is or what my maiden name was. Just because I'm 28 doesn't mean I'm married, people!

I do not have an exessively lame list of Not Me's.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

South Gwinnett Prayer Walk

It was a great night! Just posted pictures: Shiloh Photography.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Not Me! Monday

So, over on the right side of my blog is a button about praying for sweet baby Stellan that also serves as a link to MckMama's blog. Stellan's story is beyond amazing and his life outside MckMama's belly hasn't even begun yet! Seriously...it's worth reading. I warn you, though, once you start you won't be able to stop.

So, about Not Me! Monday...go here to see what it's all about and then do one yourself!



I did not get ridiculously excited that I had two comments on last week's Not Me! Monday post within minutes of posting it...AND because one of them was from MckMama.

When telling others the amazing story of wee Stellan, I do not refer to MckMama as "this girl I know" or "my friend" even though I have never met her in real life and have only emailed a few times. That would be a little obsessive and slightly stalker-ish. Sure am glad I don't do that.

Since I do not start my new Not Me! Monday post shortly after posting the previous one, I am not hoping that the events of this week give me more to blog about since my last three consecutive posts have been Not Me! Monday posts. But I don't start my Not Me! Monday posts (and I definitely don't repeatedly hit "save as draft") early enough to do that.

I did not get REALLY excited when I saw that people from THREE different countries have visited my blog over the last 36 hours...that's SO cool...I mean...that is SO not-cool!

This past week I was not asked (and definitely did not accept) an offer to coordinate a mock wedding for a pretty huge bridal show. Of course, if I had been asked and accepted, I would have had to create a 'company' name and blog to have a professional looking listing on the vendor list, but I did not. And, if I had created a 'company' and a blog it most certainly would not be called Shiloh Fusion Events...and that wouldn't be a link to said blog. Oh, and I wouldn't have high plans to spend a number of my 40 work hours this week creating posts for that blog from the weddings I've done in the past...I'm far to diligent and disciplined for that.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Shiloh.Fusion Events

So, when I was working on my Not Me! Monday post for last week, I was hoping that I would have a little something more interesting happen this week so there would actually be a post or two in between my Not Me! Monday posts...'cause, really, how lame is it to have three Not Me! Monday posts in a row???

And, it did! My amazing, talented and beautiful friend Callie emailed me a few weeks back and said she had a new project she wanted to talk to me about. Callie is a year or so ahead of me in the whole "start your own photography business thing" and we've done some stuff together. She's taught me A TON about photography...we've done a couple weddings, and a couple shoots together. But, after that email, we didn't really talk for a while.

Last weekend, though, she had a going away party for my new Real American Hero, her husband, David. He left this past Monday for Navy training. Really, he and Callie both are my heroes these days...I cannot even begin to express my appreciation for them!

So, at the party, she threw out a new project idea...and it's almost as incredible as she is! Callie is hosting (or would it be hostessing? Does Callie even care??? I think not.)...she's putting together a bridal show...but not your traditional bridal show...a mock wedding. She's calling it the NotWedding. It's a whole big wedding with a bride and groom and bridesmaids and invitations and music and a reception with food and cake...and it's going to be flippin amazing!

And, I get to coordinate/direct the ceremony portion of the program! Again I say, so flippin exciting!!!

And, I'll be on the vendor list as coordinator.

Because of that, I needed a blog or website or something. So, I created Shiloh.Fusion Events...and the Shiloh.Fusion blog. I've only put up a post or two in case anybody runs across it before I get it put together...but, as I find the stuff I need, I'll be creating a post for each of the weddings I've done in the past. Check back if you're interested.

The name Shiloh.Fusion...

Over on the right side of my blog, where the links are, you'll see a link to Shiloh Photography. That's my photography company. I LOVE the word Shiloh and all that it means and stands for. The name Shiloh (like, for a person) means "His gift" and that is precisely what photography is for me...a gift from the Lord. So, it was a perfect name.

Shiloh is also the place in 1 Samuel where the Lord to Hannah when He promised her her heart's desire. It's not where He fulfilled it, but where He gave her the promise.

in naming my events planning efforts i wanted something that coordinated. In other places in the Old Testament, Shiloh refers to a place of rest, as well as a reference to Jesus as the "peaceful one." The town of Shiloh was a fairly nondescript place...a blank landscape to be filled by the new residents. Isn't that what marriage is all about??? A place of safety for the bride and groom...and blank canvas to be decorated by the bride and groom...and most of all, a reflection of Jesus?

So, Shiloh.

The definition of fusion:
the process or result of joining two or more things together to form a single entity

So, Fusion.

Shiloh.Fusion Events...two people becoming one to be a peaceful representation of Jesus...my prayer for the weddings I coordinate.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Not Me! Monday

So, over on the right side of my blog is a button about praying for sweet baby Stellan that also serves as a link to MckMama's blog. Stellan's story is beyond amazing and his life outside MckMama's belly hasn't even begun yet! Seriously...it's worth reading. I warn you, though, once you start you won't be able to stop.

So, about Not Me! Monday...go here to see what it's all about and then do one yourself!



I did not start this post last Tuesday and did not repeatedly save it as a draft so I wouldn't forget what I wanted to post for this weeks Not Me! Monday.

I did not lay down in my bed, with my computer on my lap, and fall asleep last Monday while reading everyone else's Not Me, Mondays. No, I did not sleep with my computer.

I did not eat Cheetos for breakfast the other day (and Doritoes the next day) just because I like Cheetos and there was nobody around to see me eat Cheetos for breakfast.
I have not looked at my blog obsessively to see where people looking at my Not Me! Monday are from...and if I had, my excitement would not be measured proportionately to the distance they are from where I live. I mean, really? Who has that much time...and so little to do with it???

Monday, September 29, 2008

Not Me! Monday

So, over on the right side of my blog is a button about praying for sweet baby Stellan that also serves as a link to MckMama's blog. Stellan's story is beyond amazing and his life outside MckMama's belly hasn't even begun yet! Seriously...it's worth reading. I warn you, though, once you start you won't be able to stop.

So, about Not Me! Monday...go here to see what it's all about and then do one yourself!



I did not have such an uneventful (yet busy!) week that I haven't posted anything since last week's Not Me Monday.

I did not look at MckMama's Not Me Monday at 6am with amazement that already 68 people had linked their Not Me Monday's. (And another 10 didn't link while I was reading the first 68.)

I did not read ALL 68 Not Me Monday posts this morning.

I did not write a talk yesterday afternoon that I am supposed to give tonight.

I am not sitting here trying to think of interesting Not Mes instead of getting ready for work...and I definitely will not be late to work because of it.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Not Me! Monday

So, over on the right side of my blog is a button about praying for sweet baby Stellan that also serves as a link to MckMama's blog. Stellan's story is beyond amazing and his life outside MckMama's belly hasn't even begun yet! Seriously...it's worth reading. I warn you, though, once you start you won't be able to stop.

So, about Not Me! Monday...go here to see what it's all about and then do one yourself!



1. Last week I did not discover that my fridge had died ten days before and spend an entire day cleaning it out.

2. While not cleaning out that fridge, I did not slip in water, bounce off a wall and hit the floor bruising my arm and, well, my tailbone.

3. While not cleaning out that fridge and not laying on the floor in pain, I did not think about how I would post such incidents on a Not Me! Monday post.

4. I did not eat a full plate of leftover green beans and black beans and rice for dinner at 9 tonight...and if I would have, I certainly would have heated them up first. But I did not.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part XVII

This trip was, probably, the best I’ve ever been on, while at the same time being the most difficult, physically and emotionally. I learned a lot on this trip about myself and about what the Lord is calling me to. I feel now, more than ever, the call to South America. Suddenly, I find myself thinking about South America not in terms of going for a year and seeing what the Lord says at the end, but thinking of simply going and doing and being until the Lord moves otherwise. He has captivated my heart with South America and the lives of the people there and I can do nothing but go.

I learned a lot on this trip, too, about the power of prayer. The things that I had specifically asked for prayer for were the things I received. My Spanish amazed me. I say that not in a proud way but in the way that the Lord touched my mouth and my brain to speak the language clearly and effectively. Before we left I asked Kitti to pray that I would be able to write everyday and that I would come home with a renewed energy to write. I did write everyday, and on the plane on the way home, realized again how much I love the English language and the depth and beauty of words and what you are reading now is the product of those prayers.

I started writing this, not with the intention of having a 25-page narrative of the trip, but to have something tangible to remind me and my new friends of our time in Ecuador, of this time that I hope changed all of our lives. What I have, now, is more than just twenty-five pages of words. Writing this has forced me to take the time to go back through my journal and, therefore, back through the trip, through everything I experienced and we experienced together. I walked, again, through amazing moments like the resplendence of the waterfall and very low moments of discouragement and frustration. And in retaking that journey, I found again, and maybe for the first time, all of the absolutely incredible things the Lord did to display to us His amazing hand. I hope everyone from our team finds this an accurate description of our trip. It is written from my experience and from my heart.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part XVI

Saturday morning it was time for us to depart from Ambato and head back to Quito. We would be catching a flight back to Miami early the next morning to head home. We said goodbye to Ester and the girls and Jonhattan and Ivonne that morning. When I hugged Ivonne goodbye, I promised her that I would be praying for their son and she said she would be praying for the decisions I had to make. When we left the hacienda for the last time that morning, Ben was still not well. He pretty much had to be carried to the bus and helped to a seat.

Ava and I sat together near the back of the bus for the ride back to Quito. We talked a lot and cried some. The week in Ecuador and the time with Jenni made me appreciate the presence of an Ava in my life; and that Ava was there with me, made me thankful again that she is the one the Lord chose to use in my life.

We dropped Ben off back at the HCJB guesthouse where we had stayed the previous weekend. We left him there to sleep and went to a Chinese restaurant in Quito. Josh’s camera was stolen while we were there, taken off the back of his chair. We were all disappointed for him because all of his pictures were lost, but we prayed for the guy who stole it, that his heart would be convicted by the pictures of the beautiful faces he would see.

From there, we went to an outdoor market in Ambato. I walked around with Ava, Lana and Dan; when it began raining, we picked a booth, bought some stuff and made our way back to the bus. While we were there, though, I was able to buy a beautiful tapestry for the Tree House. Danny was so pleased with what Ava and I found for them.

That evening, we picked up Ben from the guesthouse and went to the Koenig’s home for dinner and a time of debriefing. Ben seemed to be doing really well; he was sitting up and talking, but still shivering from the fever. We started the debrief and, of course, I had my journal and wrote down what just about everyone said. The debrief was going well, until Ben got up to go to the bathroom. He was really ill and dehydrated again so Jen, Lance and Chance took him to the emergency room at the HCJB hospital. We stopped and prayed for Ben before continuing the debrief. It was not long before Jen called from the hospital and said that they had given Ben an IV and he had begun to perk up right away, but that the doctors wanted to run some tests and make sure there wasn’t a major problem. He got back to the guesthouse for the night not long after us.

We awoke early Sunday morning so that we could leave in time to get to the airport for our early morning flight. Ben had spent the night with us, but before we left it was decided that he was too ill to travel so he and Danny would stay behind for a few more days. It was beyond difficult to say goodbye to Dan and Danny. I felt like I had connected with Dan in a way I never had with a missionary on a trip before; and leaving behind our team leader was heart breaking. It almost felt like we were abandoning a part of our team, especially watching Danny say goodbye to his teenage daughters who would be returning with us. It reminded me of the first time Ava and I had been in Peru when we left Rob and Lisa Grose there to take care of Laura Lins who had been diagnosed with cancer. The reality, though, was that Ben was not healthy enough to travel. There was a lot of walking through the airports in Quito, Miami and Atlanta and it would have been too much for him.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part XV

That afternoon, we returned to Jonhattan’s church where someone had set up a projector and screen so we could watch the Ecuador-Poland World Cup game. This was only the second time the Ecuador team had ever played in the World Cup so the whole country stopped to watch. In fact, earlier in the week, an Ecuadorian congressman had decided to go to Germany to watch the game. The people of Ecuador got mad because he would be skipping out on a vote. There were almost small riots in Quito as the congressman battled with the people. The outcome: shut the country down at noon so the people can watch the game and the congressman can go to Germany. And that’s what happened.

Because the country was closed, the school was as well; Jonhattan opened up the church for the students to come watch the game and to give us another opportunity to build relationships with them. There were a few kids there at the very beginning of the game, but they ended up leaving so it was most of our group and the group of people from Jonhattan’s church who had worked with us all week at the Montalvo school. It was fun to have time just to hang out with them. The day before the game, Jonhattan had bought us all knock-off Ecuador jerseys that are bright yellow with blue and red accents. The church, the afternoon of the game, was full of gringos and Ecuadorians alike proudly wearing their brand new soccer jerseys. Ecuador beat Poland 2-0. It was their first World Cup victory ever so the country, and the church, was in a celebratory uproar.

We left the church right after the game and drove over to the coffee house run by Ivan, a Campus Crusade missionary we had met earlier in the week. At the coffee house we left a team of eight to turn the room into an inviting place for high school and college aged kids to just hang out and hear the gospel. The rest of the team walked down the street to the mall. Because we were a group of gringos wearing Ecuador jerseys, people were hanging out of their car windows to yell to us and cheer for their home team’s win.

I was so frustrated then. I enjoyed the game, but I didn’t want to have left the Montalvo school to watch a soccer game and go to the mall. My attitude was bad, and I knew it. One of the blessings of having Ava on the trip was that that was all I had to tell her and I knew she would be praying. Danny and I walked to the mall together and talked about how we would shop together with the intention of finding something Ecuador-ish to take back as a thank you gift for the Tree House and to remind them to continue praying for the kids at the school in Montalvo. We didn’t find anything for the Tree House, but we did find a coffee shop with real coffee. What Terecita had for us every morning was very, very welcomed, but it was also instant. When Danny and I stopped at the coffee shop, I knew that I couldn’t return to the coffee house where Ava was working without some for her. She made me laugh when I handed her the cup and her whole face lit up.

When the whole team met back at the coffee house, the painting team wasn’t done yet so we left them there and returned to Jonhattan’s church for dinner and a prayer meeting. The meeting was, again, up in the sanctuary of the church. Every church we worked at during the week sent a representative so Fernando and Angelica were there with Diego and Maria. Hernan and Jenni came, too. Diego and Maria sat with Ava and I as Jonhattan preached. When he finished, the leaders of the churches had us again stand at the front of the church as the women presented us with gifts. Our guys were given a mug and piece of pottery and our women were given a plate from Hernan’s church and a piece of pottery.

When we were again seated, we were given bracelets made by Miriam, a seventeen-year-old girl from the Montalvo church. The bracelets are spiral wire with red, yellow and blue beads, in honor of Ecuador winning the game. I’m not sure at what point I started crying. I think maybe it was when Danny cried while hugging Miriam. At any rate, I was crying when Hernan got to our pew to give bracelets to Ava and I. Because I was crying, he put my bracelet on, hugged me, and then sat through the rest of the service with one arm around my shoulders and held my hand.

Danny, then, stood and said a few words of thanks for their hospitality and the gifts before we were again called to the front so the nationals could pray for us. They had never seen a group of believers circle around someone to pray for him or her before that week and were eager to practice this new element of prayer. I knew this was the last opportunity I would have to be with Jenni so I again made my way across the room to be near her.

Jonhattan and Angelica prayed that night as I stood holding Jenni’s hand. During the prayer, she took off her scarf and put it around my neck. She held me then, and wept as she prayed for my team and I. My heart broke for this woman with whom it had so connected. After the prayer, I removed the necklace I had worn all week. I gave her the simple silver chain and explained that the charm was the Hebrew letter for life from John 14:6 and that I wanted her to have it because the life of Jesus radiates through her smile. We both cried a lot then. We talked some and I got her email address so that we could keep in touch and I could continue to pray for her.

As I said goodbye to her that last time, it was difficult to let go and walk away. We were both crying when I told her that I didn’t want to leave her there without a mentor. Her response was to ask if I would mentor her. Wow. I’m not equipped for that. It struck me again how blessed I am to have Ava and it hurt to know that this amazing, godly woman longed for this relationship that I have that is so precious to me. My life is different because the Lord blessed me with Ava and on that last night in Ambato, I again prayed that He would give Jenni an Ava.

We spent some time after the service saying goodbye to our friends and exchanging gifts. Terecita, the sweet lady who cooked for us, gave each of the ladies a little blue bracelet and some of her old friends little ceramic chefs to take home. I noticed that Chance was standing over by himself so I walked over and hugged him. We cried together and decided that this saying goodbye and leaving part is terrible. Ben was sitting alone to so I went to check on him. He was sitting alone because he was feeling less than stellar. He said he would be fine so I left him alone.

We left the church soon after and returned to the hacienda. For the first time that week, all the amenities of the hacienda were open. There were people in the pool, sauna and the hot tub. A few of the girls from the church had asked if they could come over and have a real American sleepover so Ester, Maribel and a couple younger girls were there, too. Jonhattan and Ivonne came over to spend time with us on our last night.

I was able to sit and talk with Ivonne for a while that night. It was, really, the first time I had had an opportunity to talk with her since I had sat with her family at dinner earlier in the week. During that Monday night dinner she and I had gone through all the cursory questions that you answer when meeting someone in South America: “Is this your first time in Ecuador?” and “Do you like it here?” I explained to her that night that I had been to Peru twice in the last few years and Brazil when I was a teenager. She remembered that first conversation and as she and I sat alone on the floor of the hacienda, her first statement to me was, “Peru has your heart, doesn’t it?” It was encouraging to me that she could see my love for Peru and South America just from that short conversation.

We talked about the differences I had seen in Peru and Ecuador and the ministries there. And we talked of the decision that I now had to make. We talked some, too, of me finishing school and how her recommendation is that I do finish school, but only if I go to the seminary in Texas that Jonhattan had attended or Word of Life Argentina. I enjoyed the conversation, too, because we are both bilingual enough that most of the conversation was in Spanish, but when I got confused she could switch to English. I left that conversation realizing how much I had thoroughly enjoyed the people in Ecuador and very much appreciating the heart and smile of Ivonne Constante.

Later on that evening, I was sitting on the couch talking with Ava, Dan and some other people when someone came out and said that Ben was really sick. Dan went to check on him, then came back out and said we needed to pray for him. Ava and I waited up for a while to see if he was getting any better. Apparently at one point, he was so ill that he passed out in the bathroom and fell on the floor. Dan and the guys in Ben’s room prayed with him and then and Dan had Ester prepare a hydration drink for him. He was able to keep that down and went to sleep so Ava and I went to bed praying that he would be healthy again in the morning.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part XIV

We awoke Friday knowing it was our last day in Ambato, our last day at the school in Montalvo and our last day with our new friends from Jonhattan’s church. We were all eager to get to the school and spend time with the kids, but nobody wanted the day to rush by. Friday was a great and hard and amazing day that I want to remember every day for the rest of my life and yet never think of again.

That morning when we arrived at Jonhattan’s church to pick up the teachers as we had every morning, we were informed that there were leftover Samaritan’s Purse boxes for us to take to the school in Montalvo. When we finished all the events we had planned for the kids that morning, the puppet show, lesson and craft, we sat them down in the biggest of the classrooms and Jonhattan shared the gospel with them. Then we gave them the boxes. I was able to give boxes to Maria, Luisa and Juanito and help them open them. They were so excited! Maria’s box contained one of those 25¢-pack of gum with five pieces and put every piece in her mouth at once. It was so amazing to have shared the gospel with her one day and give her a Samaritan’s Purse box the next.

The school had a surprise for us, too. They had prepared for us a lunch of cuy, the South American delicacy which we in the US call guinea pig. That particular morning, neither Ava nor I were feeling so much spectacular so we were a little concerned about eating the cuy. As soon as we knew what was coming we both began praying. God is good. We both were given very small pieces of cuy. Ava began singing ‘How Great is Our God.’ Each plate held a piece of cuy and three potatoes. Unfortunately, I’m pretty sure my potatoes must have held some sort of world record for size. Earlier in the week, when I wasn’t feeling so well at Muchigrande, it was as a result of the potatoes; my body doesn’t digest them well in South America. The people of the Montalvo community had sacrificed so much to thank us and I wanted to receive well so I ate two of my potatoes. I think there were a few members of our team staking out the school grounds for a safe place to leave our cuy behind.

After the cuy, we were able to hang out with the kids for just a little while longer. Then we had to say goodbye. It was so difficult! As we were hugging the kids, saying goodbye and climbing on the bus, I couldn’t find any of my three new friends. I held back as long as I could; I didn’t want to leave without saying goodbye to them. Before I boarded the bus, I took one last look around the field and saw Luisa. She was running across the schoolyard with the new doll from her Samaritan’s Purse box. When she got close enough, she jumped on me. I hugged her for a moment and we both cried as we said goodbye and I told her I would do my best to come back next year. As the bus pulled away, the kids stood in the schoolyard and waved to us for the last time.


Luisa, Me and Juanito

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part XIII

We, again, returned to the school the next morning. As with the first few days, we started by singing songs with the kids in front of the school. My back hurt so bad, though, that I couldn’t participate. I had woken up numerous times the night before in pain and was never quite able to get comfortable so by the time we were at the school, I was in pain and I was tired. I was frustrated because I couldn’t participate so I sat on the sidewalk along the front of the school building by myself, hoping that the pain would be gone in time to interact with the kids during the lesson and the craft. Danny came over and sat with me to find out what was in wrong. In truth, I hadn’t wanted him to know the day before, or even that morning, how badly my back hurt or how I felt it was affecting what I was there to do. I didn’t want to be different and I didn’t want to need to be taken care of. Danny sat with me and listened and prayed with me and made me cry. He encouraged me to take the time I needed to lay down on the bus or stay back at the hacienda for the afternoon, but I refused to give up any time while I was in Ecuador. I only had ten days there; I wasn’t going to spend any of them in bed.

Our group took the students inside for the puppet show and lesson and I stood outside holding a sweet little baby named Leslie so her mom could hear the lesson and the gospel. The craft for the day was a picture frame made of Popsicle sticks. We had stickers for them to decorate the frames and then took a Polaroid picture of each child to go in the frame. Once their picture was taken, they could go and play soccer in front of the school. Most of the kids went out to the soccer field, but there was one little girl, named Maria, who wanted to sit in my life.

Maria is a member of a family that I fell in love with. She is nine years old with a seven-year-old sister, Luisa, and a five-year-old brother, Juanito. Juanito was my buddy. We spent three days with them before Juanito would smile but he always gave me big hugs and offered to share whatever snack he was munching on that day. Luisa is beautiful, too. I noticed her the very first day, even before I knew her name. Luisa has a smile that consumes her entire face.

On that particular afternoon, all Maria wanted to do was sit in my lap. So, we sat outside of the school, both of us just enjoying being loved on. As we sat there, I prayed for her. I prayed that she would find Jesus and that He would send her an Ava to disciple her and teach her how to live a life that glorifies Him. I prayed that in the future the Lord would give me an opportunity to return to Montalvo and see her again. We talked a little and I asked if she would let me pray for her in English and she agreed so I prayed for her again, this time out loud. She didn’t know what I was saying, but the Lord did and He heard. After I prayed with her, we began talking some more and the Lord set my mouth on fire with the Spanish language. This time as we talked, I was able to share the gospel with her. I didn’t struggle with the words or the translation which, even in the moment, blew my mind because those are words I don’t know in Spanish. I asked her if she understood what I said and she said yes so we prayed again. Later, when she was again sitting in my lap, Dan came by and said hi to her so I told him about our conversation and asked him if he would make sure she did understand. So, he talked with her and as he looked back up to me, his eyes were filled with tears. He held Maria’s face in his hands, looked in my eyes and informed me that she had said that she has Jesus in her heart now.

I’m glad I didn’t go lay down on the bus. That is why I wouldn’t go lay down on the bus. That might have been the most incredible experience of my life. I had prayed that I would get to see her again someday and I will. It may not be in Ecuador, but that’s ok. Well have all of eternity to catch up.

For lunch that day, we went to the Jesus Loves You Church in Montalvo. Jenni and her friends had made us soup and chicken and a dessert. After we ate, the ladies who had cooked for us, did a traditional Ecuadorian dance for us as well. Eventually, they had us all up and dancing with them. It was so fun…until Sarah, Jenni’s daughter, pulled me into the middle of the circle and the Ecuadorians pushed a guy named David out to dance with me. I have no rhythm. I have come to accept that. I’m ok with it…until people make me dance in the middle of a circle. But David was so sweet and he taught me how to do the dance the ladies had started with.

Before we left the church, our team took some time to circle around Hernan and Jenni to pray for them, their church and community. I had made a point every day to spend some time with Jenni, to tell her how special she was and how much I appreciated her. So, during this time of prayer for her, I wanted to be with her and made my way through the circle. She stood with one arm around her husband and one around me and as we prayed for them, both Jenni and I cried, a lot. After the prayer, she clung to me and wept and told me how much she missed her friends from the year before, Prasad and LeeAnn. In that moment, I knew that I was in no way prepared to say goodbye to her for good the next day.

That night we went back to the school at Jonhattan’s church and hung out with the students for a little while. Some of our guys played soccer and basketball with some of the students while we watched with some of the girl students. They took us inside, into the sanctuary with the stunning new floor, for an assembly that the students planned, prepared and executed. I was so tired, but the assembly was so cool, except for when I fell out of my chair and the girls in my row laughed at me. Just as on Sunday morning, Danny had wanted us to spread ourselves around the room and among the students. I was able to find a seat next to Ebony, Nora and the other girls I had painted with at Muchigrande with Ava directly in front of me and Lana behind me.

The assembly was loaded with performances the students had prepared for us. A group of girls, including Maribel and Pati (one of the other girls who taught for us at the school) did an interpretive dance to the Darlene Czech version of “My Jesus, My Savior.” They had a choir that sang a couple of songs in English for us. A group of boys did a dance with flags. After the students performed, Dan and Lance spoke to the students. Lance shared his story again, this time asking the students to write down their answer to the question of whether or not they knew where they would go if they died that night. Ebony and Anna both wrote “no” on their paper. I had spent time with them earlier in the week and it scared me that they had no clue about Jesus. I leaned forward and whispered their names to Ava to pray for them while Dan and Lance were speaking.

When Lance was finished, Dan had our entire group of gringos stand in the front and look at the students. He told them that he wanted them to know that we were there because we loved them and wanted them to know that the Lord loves them. He prayed for them and then, if they had made a decision for the Lord that night, he had them look at him while he spoke. Ebony and Nora never took their eyes off Dan as he spoke. Again, I cried.

After the assembly, the students had one last surprise for us. They had taken a collection and provided dinner for us…a rotisserie pig! We made our way through the line down to dinner. The line snaked its way down the back stairs of the sanctuary and through the downstairs kitchen, which included an opening with a counter through which food could be passed. The pig, the whole rotisserie pig, complete with head and tail, lay on the table. The mid-section of the pig was sliced open and the women from the church were scooping meat out of the pig and putting it on our plates. Wow. I had never seen anything like that before. I’m kind of hoping I never see it again. The meat was pretty good, but what I learned from that experience is that I have a difficult time eating meat when I’ve looked at the face of the animal it came from. I guess, too, I learned that I have a difficult time eating meat when the guy next to me has four of the animal’s vertebrae on his plate.

We got to hang out at the school for a while after dinner and I met one of the coolest kids ever, Omar. Danny has seen Omar every year now for three years. He took Ava and I on a tour of the church building and introduced us to the school secretary. When we were there, he was just finishing his first year of what we would consider high school so he has five more years to go in that school. Omar actually lives out in Montalvo behind the church. He, as an eleven-year-old boy, takes a public bus 30 minutes each way, to and from school. Combine that with the walk to where he meets the bus and it takes him about 45 minutes to get to and from school each day. He’s a sharp kid; it will be cool to go back to Ambato and Montalvo and watch him grow up.


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In this part of the story, I very briefly mention Patty. In 2006 she was one of the teachers at the kids club we helped with in Montalvo. When i returned in 2007, I went to the school at Jonhattan's church every day...each day there was a different group of people with me, but I was the only one who went every day. Patty was our interpreter at the school so I spent 4 to 5 hours a day with her and her sweet kids and, usually, we had a lot of time to just talk and get to know each other. We spoke Spanish as much as I could, and then we'd switch to English. Patty was my interpreter when I taught the 4th-6th graders at the school about the Bible...she was the one next to me when I didn't even realize I had begun speaking in Spanish and went on to share the gospel with 60+ kids in their own language. Since that week in 2007, Patty has become one of my dearest friends...I treasure her, her commitment to the Lord and her deeply abiding love for her children.

Her daughter, Keila, is 7 and was diagnosed about a year and half ago with Aspberger's Syndrome - a form of autism. Patty and her husband, Fabian, are working very hard right now to raise money for Keila to get the schooling she needs. Pray for them! Her son, Efraim...my sweet Epi! That child stole my heart...and he knew it. He owns it! The day we left Ambato he told his mama that he wanted to marry me so I wouldn't leave him. It's been over a year and that still makes me cry! I miss these sweet friends of mine SO much!!!

My dear friend and I:


My sweet Epi - how I love this boy!!!

Friday, August 22, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part XII

On Wednesday, the morning after we refinished the floor, I awoke in pain. My back was aching. And that morning I was so frustrated, not only with the pain in my back but with the difficulty I have in being confident and comfortable in the body the Lord created me to live in. I spent some time in Psalm 139 that morning reminding myself that the Lord knew precisely what He was doing when He created me and I prayed that I would remember that throughout the day.

I was able to ignore the pain while we were at the school that morning. Dan, Danny, Ava and Lisa were able to present the thirteen kids with their brand new school uniforms. Ava said the kids and teachers were so grateful and so sweet. She said she cried through the whole thing, which to me is such a portrait of where her heart is. After the presentation, Dan was able to spend some time with a couple of the teachers and a few parents, sharing the gospel and praying with them.

With Dan taking time with the adults, the rest of the team was given extra time to play with the kids. Aves and I had stepped aside to take a moment and pray for Dan’s words and the people’s hearts and then decided to see what was going on in one of the classrooms. As we approached the door, a little boy was walking out. He looked up into both of our faces and said, in Spanish, “God is big,” and kept walking. Ava and I looked at each other before I turned back to him and said, “And He is good, right?” The boy agreed and ran off to play with his friends. It was a beautiful moment, an assurance from the Lord that these kids were hearing the voice of the Almighty through us. We both cried.

We entered the classroom and it was like walking into a war zone. The craft that day had involved making things out of clay. By the time the kids were allowed to go out and play, they had figured out that they could make big bouncy balls out of the clay. The classroom was almost dangerous with all the balls of clay bouncing off the walls. Kids were throwing them at the wall and then diving out of the way of one coming toward them. We sat on the floor to play and talk with a few kids and I got nailed in the head with a ball of clay. That was when I decided to go back outside. Eventually, we got on the bus to leave the school for our afternoon activities and Dan shared the outcome of his conversation with the adults. Two of the teachers accepted the Lord that afternoon!

My prayer before I went to Ecuador was that the Lord would allow me to see lives commissioned to His service. That afternoon it happened. Beautiful.

Rogelio took us from the school to the Jesus Loves You Church where Hernan, Jenni and their friends were making a snack for us: empanadas, yum! I think I ate three. I’m pretty sure Ben ate about fifteen. They were so good! We couldn’t stay there for very long, though. Because Dan had spent the time with the people at the school, we were a little off schedule and had to get to the Quadrangular Church for lunch.

After lunch, “Team Dot,” eight members of our team led by Todd, headed out to finish the El Shaddai church while the rest of us stayed to paint the sanctuary at Quadrangular. My back was hurting so I was anxious to get started on the painting and be distracted so when Danny asked for someone to start cutting in at the back of the room, I jumped at the chance. The group of youth that arrived to help us that day consisted entirely of girls so the decision was made that the females from our team would just hang out with those girls, share testimonies and show them Jesus. Because I had already begun painting, I missed that directive and spent most of the afternoon cutting in a stairwell with Andy and Josh Rowan. As much as I love the Spanish language, it was so pleasant to just paint and work and not have to translate.

Later that evening, when it was dark, I went outside to clean some rollers and brushes so they would be available for the next day. The church, as with most buildings in the area, was surrounded by a cement wall with a big gate so I was safe outside by myself. When I first went outside, there was a group of people talking and working on stuff. As I cleaned, they wandered away until I was out there alone with one high school guy who was scraping old paint of a wall. Just as I realized it was just the two of us out there, he began to whistle at me. That made me nervous. I wasn’t afraid of him, but I was less than comfortable. So, I went inside and got Ben and Chance to come outside with me. With the two strong guys outside, the painter didn’t say another word to me.

We got back to the hacienda for dinner that night and I went to lie down; my back hurt so badly. I ended up skipping our team meeting that night, preferring to be alone than with the group. I spent most of the meeting praying and studying Psalm 139. I even cried some, too, more out of frustration than anything else. At that point, my back hurt to move and it hurt to be still and I was not prepared to deal with it that week. The reality is that I have a spinal birth defect called spina bifida. It is a very minor case of a very serious defect. Something like 90% of people with spina bifida never walk and most have surgery in the first few days after birth. I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 22. Really, I can do more than most people with the same defect, but when it hurts, it hurts badly and there isn’t much that helps but a couple days in bed…and I wasn’t going to do that while I was in Ecuador. I had come to Ecuador to work and hang out with some really great kids. I wasn’t prepared to loose that to back pain.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part XI

Early the next morning, we returned to the school in Montalvo and it was incredible! The morning, pretty much, followed the same format as the day before: the Ecuadorians performed a puppet show and we helped with a craft. On this day we made the salvation bracelets with a colored bead to represent each part of redemption and growth. The most fun part of my day began after the craft when we had time to take the kids outside and play. Three of the girls, Susana, Maria and Marta, were outside playing with a Chinese Jump Rope, which was my favorite game when I was a child. Unfortunately, I hadn’t played since I lived in England about eighteen years ago, and it was evident when I played with the girls. The Chinese Jump Rope is, basically, a long string with the two ends tied together to make a loop. As with a traditional jump rope, two people stand opposite and facing one another. The string loop goes around their ankles with feet shoulder width apart creating a circle. Again, as with traditional jump roping, there is a pattern of jumps inside, outside and on top of the string circle. Each time you successfully complete the pattern the string is moved, either up the legs of the people holding the string, or they will each pull a leg out so the width of the circle is only as wide as their legs making it extremely difficult to jump inside the circle without touching the string. It was so much fun! It was great to just chill out, be goofy and just live in front of the kids.

While at the school that day, someone discovered that a few of the students had not been wearing uniforms since we had been there. The uniform for the school would be familiar to just about any private school student in the States; it consisted of navy blue pants (skirts for girls), a white button-down shirt and a red knit sweater. In that community, a student without a uniform would not be unable to attend school, but would be looked down on and seen as less than adequate in their poverty. After a brief investigation Danny discovered that there were thirteen students at the school who could not afford uniforms. We simply could not leave the situation unattended.

The Sunday before we departed the States our team was asked if we could send a representative group to the Tree House (the fourth and fifth grade Sunday School) in order to be given a gift the students had collected. They had been challenged to collect “Quarters for Quito” in order to raise money to send to our project. We were amazed that morning when we were presented with almost $500! What a blessing it was to see these kids being exposed to missions and taught how very important it is to be conscious of the spiritual state of other countries. It seemed only natural that we spend some of that money to purchase uniforms for kids the same age as those who gave the money.


We left the school that day and went to the El Shaddai church for lunch, during which, Lana and I decided that Ben carries an undeniable resemblance to Gaston from Beauty and the Beast. After the meal, our team again split into two groups and set off to paint the same two churches. This time, though, we had a large group of girls helping us paint the church at Muchigrande. Dan sent me into a classroom with four girls, Ebony, Nora, Anna and Marta. A couple of them were the older girls who had livened up the group at the church on Sunday. It was so much fun to hang out with them, teach them how to paint and talk to them about Jesus. We taught each other our native languages and tried to communicate with one another and laughed a lot. The only tense moment with the girls came when they wanted me to teach them bad words. Instead of bad words, I taught them a little Georgia-speak; they loved learning how to say, “What’s up, ya’ll?”

Tuesday was our last day at Muchigrande. Angelica and her kids were there again so I had spent some time playing with them. I had enjoyed that family over the two days I’d been with them and it was hard to say goodbye. We left them, however, with a church vastly different in appearance and, hopefully, an example of how to serve the Lord in serving others.

We had dinner at the hacienda that night and left again to refinish the floor in the sanctuary at Jonhattan’s church. It was a big room and lot of work, but there were a lot people on our team so the work got done and it didn’t take too long. The guys moved all of the pews onto the stage and the girls grabbed steal wool and scrubbed the old finish off the floor. After we swept up the dust, some of our team went into a classroom downstairs and had a time of worship while the rest re-waxed the floor.

During the worship time, I realized how discouraged and frustrated I had felt all day, and even a little threatened. I’ve already explained, or at least tried to explain, how vital my relationship with Ava is. Because Satan only attacks what threatens him, he attacked that relationship, in my mind, that evening. I knew that I had been blessed to have Ava in my life; and I knew that there were other people who need to be loved the way she loves. My own self-consciousness led me to think I could and would be replaced in Ava’s life and that she was going to find someone else on this trip to disciple and I wouldn’t be special anymore. And then I began to feel guilty; I knew that I was being selfish and stupid. Ava knew during the worship time that I was struggling and hadn’t talked to her about it so she pulled me to the back of the bus to talk and pray. And I cried. When I climbed off the bus, back at the hacienda that night, I carried more clarity over the situation. Over the last year, Ava was the only person who never left me; if she hadn’t left yet, she wasn’t going anywhere anytime soon.

It was such a blessing to me that night to find time to write. Before we left on our trip, I had asked Kitti to pray that I would be able to find time to write everyday while we were gone. I don’t know if I really believed it would happen, but I knew I desperately wanted it to. As I sat on my bed that night and wrote out the events of the day, I realized that the Lord had given me that time every day because journaling is my prayer. Writing is the way I best communicate with the Lord and it is in my journal that I can most clearly see what He is saying in response. My journal is my giving over to the Lord what is in my heart and mind.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part X

Monday morning we set off on our first real day of real ministry. The general mood on the bus that morning was one of anticipation mixed with the grogginess of an early morning after a late night. Rogelio took us that morning from the hacienda to a small town called Montalvo. Montalvo is a town of very little economy and even less awareness of the Lord. It is this town that Hernan, Jenni and their church, the Jesus Loves You Church, call home. Many of the families of the church have children that attend the local school, La Luz de America, and Hernan had arranged for our group to participate in a children’s club that would be taught by women from Jonhattan’s church. As we rode through Montalvo for the first time that morning, even though I had visited the poor parts of Peru and Brazil, I was struck by how very little the people of the town had. A lot of the homes were not completed in their construction. Unreal.

We pulled into the school and as we exited the bus, the students—there weren’t very many of them--lined up outside the school to welcome us. Under the direction of the school administrator, the students sang a couple songs for us while the group from Jonhattan’s church set up a makeshift stage. We sat the kids on mats around the stage and the Ambato group did a puppet show for the kids to introduce them to the plan for the week and who we were.

After the puppet show, the kids divided into their classrooms and we split into three groups to hang out with them. I went into the room where Maribel was teaching about the wise man building his house on the rock. She taught the lesson and we sang some songs and did a craft with the kids. Dan came in after the lesson and began teaching the kids some words in English. They loved learning how to say, “Hey…what’s up?” We taught them a few more phrases in English and then took them outside to play. Most of the kids, particularly the older boys, began playing soccer and a game developed between the students and the gringos. The competition extended throughout the week.

We went from the school to another church in Muchigrande for lunch. The church had never served a meal to a group as big as ours so we barely fit in the room they had set up to feed us. They had hung balloons and streamers to make the room festive for their new friends. The decorations were left over from a baby shower. It was so touching that they would use whatever they had in an effort to make us feel welcomed.

After lunch, half of our team went to another church, Covenant Church El Shaddai, where Ivonne’s father is the pastor. Each team of gringos was joined by a group of high school boys who attend class at the school that meets in Jonhattan’s church. At Muchigrande, we painted the big central area and a couple of the smaller classrooms a bright green and white while the other group painted the El Shaddai sanctuary the same color. Lunch, for me, was not an altogether enjoyable affair and I was not feeling very well afterwards so on that particular day I spent most of the afternoon with the pastor’s wife, Angelica and her kids whom she was home-schooling upstairs in the kitchen.

Diego and Maria, Angelica’s children, are about six and eight years old and already can tell time in English better than my seven year old brother who grew up in the States. I was so impressed with the amount of English those kids possessed. While Angelica worked with Maria, I helped Diego with his telling of time, his English and his handwriting. It surprised me how much I enjoyed teaching him.

Eventually, the bus picked us up at Muchigrande and took us to meet the others at the El Shaddai church where we all gathered with the youths for a time where we could share who we were, why we were there and, ultimately, who Jesus was. We had two main topics we wanted to cover with the youth: sexual purity and drug and alcohol use. Because God is in the business of showing how great His plans are, we had people on our team who had made mistakes in each area and they each had an amazing story of how God had not only forgiven them but also used their stories to bring glory to Himself. On this particular afternoon, Lance and Kenny both shared their stories of mistakes and forgiveness, of falling and redemption.

After Lance and Kenny spoke, Dan shared the gospel with the youth and while he did not extend an invitation for them to come forward, it did appear that many of them heard his words and went home that afternoon to consider them. We parted ways with the youth after the meeting and returned to the hacienda for dinner where we were to be joined by the pastors of each church we would be working at during the week and their families.

That night at dinner I made a point to sit with Jonhattan, Ivonne and Humberto, another pastor, with the intention of working on my Spanish and just to get to know some of the nationals. Danny sat with us also and it was so encouraging to see the patience with which Jonhattan approaches people. For most of the meal, Danny and Humberto were talking about discipleship and implementing such programs into the local church while I got to know Jonhattan and Ivonne. Throughout the entire encounter, Jonhattan was aware of both conversations and was constantly and easily correcting both Humberto’s English and my Spanish so that we could both communicate more effectively. And, of course, we all tried to teach Danny some Spanish. Jonhattan is a patient man.

After dinner, each pastor had an opportunity to share their ministry with us along with prayer requests for their ministries and their families. For me, this time of learning of the ministries was a blessing and encouragement for the rest of the week. I was so much more excited, on a personal level, to be working in and with these churches and pastors when I knew something of their ministries and communities. I, of course, ran into our room and grabbed my journal so I could record what each pastor asked us to pray for. I laugh now when I look at that page in my journal. Because I was writing the prayer requests as they were being spoken initially rather than waiting for the translation, half of the words on the paper are in Spanish and half in English.

When it came his time to speak, Jonhattan shared the story of the struggle he and Ivonne faced in the adoption of their daughter, Sarita, and how they were finally able to visit her after a group from Grace had circled around and prayed with them. He shared this, I think, for a number of reasons. One reason was for our benefit. There were a number of people on our team who did not know the story and he wanted to convey his gratitude for the prayers. Another reason, the benefit of the other pastors. Many of them, I think, knew the story without knowing that our group was from that same church that had prayed with him. What followed the story was a request for more prayer. Jonhattan and Ivonne are again pursuing adoption, this time for a son.

As Jonhattan shared their desire for another child, for a brother for Sarita, I began to cry. I have, at home, a brother and sister who are both adopted and they bring so much joy and life to our family. They both came from orphanages that are probably not much different from where Sarita was or where their son will come from. I committed then to pray for this family and their new son.

Jonhattan was the last pastor to speak and when he was done, Danny had us split up with groups around each pastor and pray for them. I, thankfully, was still sitting by the table with Jonhattan and Ivonne so I moved around to pray with them. It was amazing! I got to pray with them for the adoption of their son, that their kids would come to know the Lord early, that they would be discipled and that they would be a powerful force for the Lord in Ecuador and wherever else He called them. Scotty prayed after me and I think, no, I know, it was the most beautiful prayer I’ve ever heard. I wept. Scotty’s prayer was such a clear expression of his heart to see marriages thrive for the glory of the Lord. I walked away from that experience with a whole new respect for Scotty, who has taken his passion and turned it into a ministry and a career and has done it all with great humility. I also came away encouraged and excited; encouraged that maybe I could do the same and excited to find new ways to use my words to bring glory to Jesus.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part IX

Just an update before I post the next section of my Ecuador story...in the last section was the story of Jenni. I just wanted to add what a blessing she still is to my life...how excited I was to see her again last year...and how much it still blesses my heart and brings tears to my eyes when I get emails from her about how she prays for me. Wow. And, how very, very much I miss her and wish I could have seen her this year. Somewhere, there is a picture of she and I from last year...right after we had seen each other again for the first time. It's my very favorite picture of me ever. If I can find it, I'll post it.

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I found the picture:



and I love it.

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Our sightseeing adventure began after lunch. We again boarded the bus and drove to a town called Baños. The town is known, in certain circles, for its hot springs. To us, it is known for the amazing waterfall in contains. Baños is located on the edges of the jungle territory of Ecuador, only a thirty-minute bus ride from Shell Mera and the MAF base of Nate Saint. When we climbed off the bus in Baños, we stood amidst several stands, almost like a very small flea market, with people selling their wares, jewelry and such. From there, we looked up at mountains that commanded our attention with their splendor and looked down into a valley that held a river amazing in its beauty and obvious power.

From the center of the market area, we began to walk down a path that led through the trees. We hiked about 15 or 20 minutes down the trail until we came upon a suspension bridge. At our end of the bridge a man was posted to only allow five people on the bridge at a time. That made me nervous. I hate bridges. I particularly hate bridges that cross rivers that run with an unrivaled fury. But, I wasn’t willing to let my fear keep me from what I had been promised would be a view I would never forget, so, I waited my turn and walked to the center of the bridge. Chance and I walked out there together. Once in the center, we did as we had been instructed and turned around to look up-river. We stood in silence for a moment and marveled at the sheer majesty and resplendent beauty of the waterfall that fed the river raging beneath us.

I had heard about the waterfall from Ava and Dan and others, but their descriptions hadn’t done justice to what I stood before that day. Their descriptions couldn’t have done justice. I’m not sure the words exist to accurately express what the waterfall proclaimed about God’s beautiful creativity. We walked back to the start of the bridge and continued further down the path to a series of steps that would take us close to the bottom of the waterfall. It was one of the most incredible things I have ever seen. The power of the cascade so mightily portrayed the hand of God. Beauty in power. The picture of the waterfall that I carry in my mind stands as a testimony to the beauty and grace in the power of the hand of God. It serves as a reminder that He is ever powerful and if He can contain such a force, He can handle the chaos of my life.

We circled around and took the path back to the top and the market area. Along the way back, for the most part, Ava and I walked along together, alone. We stopped, at one point, and looked down the river and across mountain after mountain and talked about Lord as His reality. We both stood in awe of His hand and how He works. And we stood in a stunned sadness wondering how anyone could take in such a landscape and not know intrinsically that there is a sovereign, all-knowing and all-powerful God. He gives great gifts when He uses such beauty to display how good and how real He is.

After experiencing the waterfall, we took the bus into the town of Baños for dinner at a cool little restaurant. Our group, along with Hernan and Jenni’s family and, I think, a few others from Jonhattan’s church, filled the entire restaurant. I was so excited to again be able to share a meal with Jenni and Alejandro. Ava, Lance and Ben ate with us also and we all laughed, a lot, as Jenni taught us the Spanish words for the different items on the table.

This meal was the first of many at which Dan would have us go around the room and introduce ourselves so the gringos and the nationals could get to know each other. At this particular meal, he explained that in the Spanish language adding the suffix of “-ita” or “-ito” to a name indicates familiarity or that a person is precious to you. When it became my turn to introduce myself, I stood and said that my name was Kerry, or Ana and sat down. When I was again seated, Alejandro caught my eye, gave me a definitive look and said, “No. No, Anacita.” Jenni nodded her agreement and patted my leg.

How sweet that family is. I already liked that family, but that night I loved them.

On the way “home” that night, I was so frustrated. It had happened again, for the fourth consecutive time. I was in South America and I was sick. By the time I got off the bus at the hacienda, I couldn’t breathe. I was congested and coughing and feeling downright miserable.

The difficulty for me in getting sick on this trip was more mental than physical. I’ve known for a few years now that the Lord’s plan for me is to live in South America, at least for a little while. However, when I got sick this time and realized that it was happening every time I was in South America it made me begin to question everything I had previously thought about my future. And that was scary. I started praying then, really praying, that the Lord would give me some clarity over the week and show me if my respiratory problems were His message that I wasn’t walking toward the future He wanted. I prayed, afraid of the answer, and waited knowing the Lord would be faithful.

Friday, August 15, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part VIII

In all the preparations for this year's Peru trip...and the getting sick before-hand...and the being really, really sick when I got home...I got away from posting these pieces about my 2006 Ecuador trip. And I don't think anyone really cares...but I'm picking up where I left off. :)

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I have found that with every missions trip, there is one person the Lord has for me to meet. There is always one person who comes home with me as part of my heart and yet keeps a part of me with them. I met that person at lunch after the church service and, even now, it is difficult for me to write about Jenni without crying. Her tenderness broke my heart with our first conversation.

After the service at their own church in Montalvo, Pastor Hernan, his wife Jenni and their children Sarita, Carlos and Alejandro, met us at Primera Bautista for lunch and an afternoon sightseeing excursion. We were already seated for lunch when they arrived and because Dan knew I spoke Spanish, he intentionally had Jenni sit in the empty seat next to me. I was excited when she sat down simply for the chance to speak Spanish and to help her communicate with my friends.

We, of course, did the initial introductions among the people sitting in our area and moved from there into explaining who was related to whom on our trip and who was related to people who had come before us on previous trips. Ava and Lana were seated across from Jenni and I, and it soon became apparent that there was a relationship between the three of us. That, in conjunction with Ava and I having the same hair color at the time, led Jenni to ask if Ava was my mom. Jenni had already proven herself patient with my poor Spanish so I opted to give the full explanation rather than a simple “no.” I told her that Ava has been my mentor for two years and that she was like my mom because my mom doesn’t know Jesus. Jenni looked at me, with tears in her eyes and said, “She is your spiritual mom.” When I nodded and agreed to such a very appropriate title for Ava, Jenni began to cry. She told me, then, of the struggles she and her husband had faced in their church and community over the past year. At the end of her story, she said that her heart longs for a mentor, for someone to disciple her and for a godly woman-friend she could confide in and pray with; that she loves her husband but that it isn’t the same as having a close female friend. My heart broke for her then and I realized how very much I take Ava for granted. I also realized how blessed I am to have, not only Ava, but also several other godly women in my life who advise me and pray with and for me. Yet I was sitting next to a tender and faithful woman who wanted to live for the Lord in her community and had to do it alone.

That conversation was only the beginning of the relationship between Jenni and I. The more time I spent talking with her, watching her minister to us, and praying for her, the more the Lord burdened my heart for her. I consider it one of the best blessings of the trip to have been able to get to know her as I did

"Enjoy your gas!"

Umm...yeah.

File that under 'Phrases I Never Thought I'd Hear.'

I stopped at my friendly neighborhood QuickTrip for gas yesterday. I had cash on my so I went in and paid that way and the phrase above is what I heard as I walked away from the counter.

Enjoy my gas. Right...I really enjoy paying $3.68 a gallon which, granted, is better than the $4.05 I paid not too terribly long ago.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Stuff I've been thinking about...

I have NO idea where this one came from...it literally hit me out of the blue in the car this afternoon. I’ve traveled A LOT...I’ve traveled a lot this year, alone. I’ve left the country three times already this year and I already have another trip planned. So, I’ve seen a lot...I’ve seen some really beautiful places...places that will take your breath away. Look at my photo blog to see some of the pictures: Shiloh Photography. Three years ago I sat on a rooftop in Peru listening to a godly man speak about Ephesians 1.4: just as we were chosen in Him before the foundation of the world. I looked at the beauty of the mountains around me in the waning sunlight and realized that my life was written before the foundation around me...all that magnificence was made of God’s leftovers.

So, today in the car, it occurred to me that all of the beauty of Peru and Ecuador and St. Kitts and all of the places that I love, all of that was created with just a breath in seven days. Such glory in seven days. And, here’s where Heaven comes in...Jesus said, “I go to prepare a place for you...” (John 14.2). He said that 2,000 years ago.

How far beyond our wildest imaginations must Heaven’s beauty be??? If the colors of the Caribbean ocean and the topography of the Peruvian country-side took a mere seven days, how ridiculously, unbelievably amazing is Heaven going to be??? I can’t even wrap my brain around the words to think about it.

And I stinking can’t wait to see it!!!

Monday, July 7, 2008

This is where I am today...

It may be a phone call
That comes without warning
And suddenly my heart is breaking
It may be a headline
I wake to one morning
And suddenly my world is shaken
But every now and then
When life falls apart
There's a truth I trust
That calms my ehart

Nothing takes You by surprise
Here beneath these troubled skies
There's a comfort just to realize
Nothing takes You by surprise

Sometimes the hard times seem
Senseless and random
Like life's just a series of chances
But come what may You've never
Left us abandoned
You're God over all circumstances
And nothing on earth
Can stop Your plans
You're in control
We're in Your hands

Nothing takes You by surprise
Here beneath these troubled skies
There's a comfort just to realize
Nothing takes You by surprise

Though bitter winds blow
This truth is sweet
Things out of our hands
Are still under Your feet

And

Nothing takes You by surprise
Here beneath these troubled skies
There's a comfort just to realize
Nothing takes You by surprise

Nothing takes You by surprise
Whatever crisis may arise
Jesus, You're Lord of our lives
Nothing takes You by surprise

Mark Harris/Tony Wood

I love you, Andrea...and I'm praying for you and your family!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Tomorrow!

Gosh...I leave tomorrow! That's insane!!!

I'm sort of pretty much ready. And by that I mean, I know what I'm taking. :) Most of my clothes are in the washer/dryer...most of the rest of what I need is laid out, ready to be packed. I just have to grab a few more things and put it all in a suitcase!

When Heather calls, we'll go to Old Navy and I'll look for a couple more shirts. I'm hoping they still have winter-ish stuff marked way, way down. I could use another pair of pants, too...but that's not necessary.

And then Heather and I are going to Chili's for dinner...Yum! Not bad for a last real meal for 10 days. :) I love Chili's. I love Old Navy. And, I love Heather. All in all, a pretty rocking Thursday night.

And tomorrow...I'll be at the church at 1230, board a bus and head on out to the airport!

It's been three years since I've been to Peru. Crazy. So much happened last time I was there. Of course, so much happens every time I go to South America.

Sooo...ummm...I guess...I'll catch ya' on the flip side.

See ya' in 10 days!!!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Ha ha ha...

I just checked the weather in Andahuaylas again...next Friday, the low is supposed to be 19!!!

Check here and pray for us!!!

Praise God for Cold Medicine and Good Friends

I feel much, MUCH better today. Still not 100%, but so much better than the last few days.

I've been taking Tylenol Cold consistently since Monday night and using my blessed Vicks Vapo Inhaler...and it seems to be working. :)

Yay! Now, to start thinking about my Peru trip!

So, I found out this week how cold it's going to be up there in the mountains. I guess I didn't really realize how high up we were going to be. I guess it's higher than I've been before. I mean, I've seen some cool weather in South America, but nothing like this. We're talking lows of 23 and highs of 68...in the SAME DAY!!!

And, in finding out how cold it's going to be, I also discovered that I need to make some clothing purchases for the trip. The next logical question, then, is how in the world am I going to pay for them??? (This is where the 'praise God for good friends part comes in.')

I was given a check yesterday for my trip from a good friend. (One whom I appreciated greatly before this event.) A few hours later I looked at it and it was written to me, not to the church...which would mean said friend would not get the tax receipt. I brought this to Great Friend's attention...and Great Friend's reply was that the money was for me for my trip...the extra expenses, not just what the trip cost.

What a blessing!!! And encouragement!!! In all honesty, I think this gift is part of what has me feeling better just for it's stress relief. :) Of course, it could also have something to do with the lecture I received from Good Friend about how I haven't been drinking enough water...and the subsequent texts to drink water...and the five bottles of water I drank yesterday afternoon/evening after talking with Good Friend. :)

So...today is my last day of work before Peru. That means, tomorrow is consumed with shopping and packing...Friday morning is set aside for some chill time and just a little heart preparation...and prayer with another very dear friend.

The excitement is starting to come!!! :)

Monday, June 9, 2008

Ugh...

So, I leave for Peru in 5 days.

And I'm sick.

Ugh...

I had some allergy/sinus ick all weekend, but I woke up this morning in full-fledged (and gross) cold mode. Congestion, drainage, man-voice and all.

Gross.

And, I have to get on a plane in 5 days.

Traveling sick and being in Peru sick doesn't really bother me all that much...I've done both, actually. What concerns me is that the travelling is on a plane.

Three years ago, the last time I was in Peru, I picked up a nasty head-cold...and by nasty, I mean NASTY. In the midst of the nastiness, we took a plane ride that lasted just a couple hours. I really, honestly thought my head would explode. My head has never hurt that bad in all my life. I cried on the plane 'cause it hurt so bad.

That's the part about being sick and leaving for Peru in 5 days that concerns me.

Well, that and the fact that I haven't even begun to shop or pack or anything...and with being sick, by the evening when I have time to do that, I'm just flat-out exhausted.

This will be an interesting week.

Pray!

Friday, June 6, 2008

Ecuador 2006 - Part VII

I woke up Sunday morning with a single line of a song running, repeatedly, through my head.

“And what was said to the rose to make it unfold, was said here in my chest.”

Beautiful words to my heart and such evidence of the inexplicable rightness I had felt since we stepped off the plane.

We arose Sunday morning to beautiful skies and a breakfast cooked by our new friend, Teresita. Teresita lives in Ambato, attends Jonhattan’s church and cooks for the American teams Dan brings to the area. Teresita was faithful in her commitment to our team. She always had hot water for coffee first thing in the early morning and hot meals when we pulled into the hacienda in the evening. What a blessing it was to be ministered to in such a way!

We were privileged that morning to attend the service at Jonhattan’s church. Rogelio delivered us to the Primera Bautista during their Sunday school hour. Because Dan wanted us to have an opportunity to interact with the youth of the church, he took Lana and I downstairs and pulled the youth girls out of their class for us to hang out with. It was so awkward! We spent some time with a few fourteen-year-olds who would not talk to us at all. They answered all of our questions with one-word answers and looked at us as if we were crazy. Eventually, a couple of older girls joined us and they livened up the conversation. The older girls had questions for us about life in the United States, our families and, of course, if we had boyfriends.

When it was time for the service to start, we moved up to the sanctuary and found places to sit. Because Danny had encouraged us that morning to spread ourselves around the church and sit among the congregation rather than in a big gringo group so that we could meet people and be a part of the congregation, Lana and I sat in a pew near the front…but nobody would sit with us. Eventually, though, the church began to fill and people sat in our pew…but they wouldn’t talk to us, choosing rather to stare at the two of us, one with beautiful blonde hair and one, an obvious out-of-a-bottle redhead.

The service began and Fabian led worship in both Spanish and English. He sang “Open the Eyes of My Heart” in Spanish, which had quickly become one of my favorite songs after I learned the Spanish version in Peru last year. I rarely sing it in English anymore, even in the U.S. When Fabian began to sing the same song in English without putting the words on the screen, I realized that I had sung it Spanish so often I didn’t know the words in English anymore. That made me laugh at myself. After a time of worship, Danny preached a message about the liberty and freedom we have in Christ and Dan translated for the Spanish-speaking congregation. Danny did a great job but the fun began when he sat down.

Jonhattan had received a number of boxes from Samaritan’s Purse and wanted us to help pass them out. Samaritan’s Purse is a ministry in the US and the UK, spearheaded by Franklin Graham. Throughout the year, Samaritan’s Purse encourages people to save shoe-boxes and, in the weeks before Christmas, fill them with items for children: small toys, dolls, toothpaste, toothbrushes, things children in privileged countries take for granted. Just before Christmas, Samaritan’s Purse collects the boxes and ships them around the world to areas with children whose parents are unable to provide them with much of the fun, or even health-conscious, parts of life. I was in a wedding last summer where the bride, rather than spending money on wedding favors and excessive decorations, instead purchased enough supplies (and collected enough shoeboxes) for each guest to put together a box before entering the reception. I also have friends who spend November and December in a warehouse in Atlanta every year helping with the receiving and shipping of Samaritan’s Purse shoeboxes so to have the opportunity to hand out the shoeboxes was amazing.

The kids were so excited to get their boxes and play with their new toys. It was such a privilege and a blessing to be a part of putting smiles on those little faces, even if it was such a small part. This was also the first opportunity I had to really use my Spanish. I talked with some of the parents and a few of the kids and came away so encouraged both with their patience with me and with how much of the language I had retained. And, of course, the experience left me so ready to meet the people we would be working with all week and to begin building relationships with them.